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Unexpected travel

I have been in the car 5 days out of the last 10. I am exhausted. I am currently in a hotel in Troy, AL. There is something refeshing about staying in hotel by youself. Even if only for a night. At least it is for me. It's like getting take a small vacation from my life. Even if I am exhausted.
Over the past few days, I have learned that you don't get to choose your family. Well, I've actually always known that. What I really learned is that I'm glad I didn't. I know I would have chosen wrong. Even if I had been given multiple chances to choose.
The reason I'm in a hotel in Troy, AL. is because something pretty special is happening tomorrow. My sister and her family are joining the Methodist church and my neice is getting baptized. It's a pretty big deal, and I am really happy that I'm able to be here for them.
Life is precious. You only get so much time with the people you love. So, in the midst of your exhaustion, or frustration, or whatever, take the…

Party of One

Ah, the single life. I must say, I've gotten pretty good at it. Which makes sense, seeing as how I've had a lot of practice. I even have a cat. Just one though. I have gone on dates here and there, but for whatever reason, it hasn't worked out. I'm okay with that...most of the time.

I gotta admit though, it feels like everywhere I look people are married, dating, having babies, etc. I notice in a lot of commercials that most people have wedding bands on (to be fair, I am a closet wedding ring checker. I do it to everyone...even people that I know are married). And then Facebook is out of control with marriage and babies (which are all adorable and I'd be really sad if I didn't get to see all the pictures of weddings I've missed and growing babies). I also want to admit that it might feel like everywhere I look people are married because I am single. That is absolutely possible, but either way, here I am.

I believe there is something overwhelmingly special a…

"'Tis better to have loved and lost...

...than never to have loved at all." I'll respond differently to that statement depending on when it is presented to me. One day, I might say, "No doubt about it. I wouldn't change a thing." Another day, I might say, "I'd give anything to be able to forget. Just wipe my memory." It really does depend on the day, but I can guarantee that more often than not, it's the first answer. Tragedy, greif, etc. make you who you are. "Pain demands to be felt." - John Green, The Fault in Our Stars. To try and take that feeling away would inevitably change you all the more, and I think maybe for the worse. At least, in my case, I believe that.

I have missed Adam more than usual today. Which now that I think about it...how do you measure missing someone? It's hard for me to measure something that doesn't involve a ruler or measuring cup. I think instead of measuring it, you describe it. For example, I missed him today, but was happy and smil…

A Work in Progress

Let's talk about where I've been...

Right here. Living my life. Working. Hanging out with friends/family.

Somewhere along the way, I felt like I had nothing "blogworthy" to mention. My days are filled with sleep, work, and a handful of friends. A lot of it feels like I'm living the same day over and over again but with different conversations. Part of me thinks that's rather depressing. The other part of me enjoys the repetition. It's kind of like a comfort zone for me. Comfort zones can be good for a little while. But then at some point (and without me every really noticing) it became a hole. A deep hole. My so called "comfort zone" made me uncomfortable almost everywhere else. I felt so different from everyone. Conversations with people I didn't know very well were painful. My social skills in situations that were not part of my "normal every day" were completely faked. It became exhausting to carry on a 10 minute conversation. I…